Sent Home with a Broken Heart

I’ll never forget the emptiness I felt afterward. You’re meant to come away with a little baby after giving birth, not be sent home from the hospital with a broken heart. By Emma My husband and I spent five years trying to have a baby. In the midst of transitioning to a new fertility doctor, a miracle had happened. I was pregnant! We were both overjoyed and our hearts were full. The first trimester brought constant nausea, some dizziness, and a miscarriage scare. When we reached the second trimester we sighed with relief. We scheduled a photo shoot to share our exciting news and started […]

Giving Sorrow Words

TFMR for Turner syndrom Ending a Wanted Pregnancy

Though the act of scheduling the termination—and the thought of actually showing up voluntarily to have it done—felt impossible to me, I didn’t ever really doubt our decision. I knew what we had to do, even though the thought of doing of it broke me in a way I didn’t think I could feel broken.   By Roseanne It was a Tuesday, my day off, and naptime when the phone call came. I was reading one last book to our daughter, cuddled up under a blanket in our bed. I didn’t recognize the number, but it was local, and I knew that maybe it was […]

No Known Cases

By H. My husband and I are currently waiting to have our termination in another three days. I am will be 18 weeks pregnant when I have the procedure. At our 12-week scan we learned that our baby had a cystic hygroma which could indicate a heart defect, a chromosomal abnormality or an inherited genetic disorder. A few days later we had a specialised scan to diagnose the problem. The technician was unable to confirm anything. What they could see looked fine in regards to heart, size of baby, etc. They offered us a termination at this point, but said there was still a 5-10% chance the baby could be born completely […]

Memorials ~ Butterfly Garden Archive

In loving memory of our EWP babies. For newer memorials, visit our Memorials page. To to submit a memorial for your baby, visit our Leave a Memorial page. Our EWP Babies 2012 Our EWP Babies 2011 Our EWP Babies 2010 Our EWP Babies 2009 Our EWP Babies 2008 Our EWP Babies 2007 Our EWP Babies 2006 Our EWP Babies 2005 Our EWP Babies 2004 Our EWP Babies 2003 Our EWP Babies 2002 Our EWP Babies 2001 Our EWP Babies 2000 Our EWP Babies 1999 Our EWP Babies 1998 Our EWP Babies 1997 Our EWP Babies 1996 Our EWP Babies 1995 Our EWP Babies 1994 and Earlier Our EWP Babies 2012 Ayla Raine Ferrari January 6, 2012 Turner Syndrome Mosaic with a rare Klinefelter’s Syndrome cell line […]

Letter to God

By Wendy L. Lyon My pastor directed me to write down everything I felt about this whole anguishing experience – it became my “Letter to God.” Writing it was no picnic. I’d never done anything like this before. We modern day Protestants are used to formal, in-church, prepared confessions of faith. Did I really want to do this? Did I need this? What did I feel? How could I accept responsibility for letting my baby die? But then I though, who but God could best understand my son’s death? Now that our baby was gone what did I have to lose? No wait! Wasn’t there […]