I found out three months into my pregnancy that I my baby was a girl. I also found out she had anencephaly. My body didn’t have enough folic acid to allow the baby’s brain and skull to form.
I was only 17 at the time. This was my first child. I chose to have an induced labor termination at 19 weeks gestation.
My precious baby girl, Seirra Marie. I thought I’d be lost with out her. I had all these dreams for her and they were shattered now. I’m 18 now and am still in pain sometimes. I wish I was in someone else’s shoes and was able to have a baby. But I figure this was God’s way of saying I was too young.
I believe that I will see her again another day.
Something that really helped me deal with my grief over what happened to my sweet daughter was reading Molly Minnick’s book A Time to Decide, a Time to Heal. Without it, I would have been a lost cause. It helps so much to know that didn’t just happen to me and that it has happened to other people.
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