Memorial Butterfly Garden

You are forever loved and remembered.
Your entire family misses you and wishes we could have met you and experienced your joy.
You were so beautiful, till we met again you will be forever in my heart.

Baby Boy, we wanted you so bad. I’m sorry we never got to meet. We will love you forever and always.
Until we meet again <3

We miss you so much Gavin. We wish you could have stayed. We will love you forever and ever. Please visit us and help us “see” you.

You made us Moms and we love you so much. We will carry you in our hearts forever.

To our beautiful baby girl. Papa and I love and miss you so much. You are such a little fighter and we’re so incredibly proud of you.
You will always be our first baby.
I will carry you in my heart, always and forever.
And I can’t wait to see you again because as long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be.

I love you forever sweet boy. I wish we could have had more time together. We miss you every day.

I miss your kicks. Devastated that things ended this way. Until we meet again my beautiful little one.

To our darling daughter.

Mummy and Daddy are sorry that we never had a chance to meet you, and we will miss you everyday.

We would have loved to have met you and seen what you would have become.

I wish we could have met, I wish I could have held you in my arms. I will try to take comfort in knowing that you’re my angel and with me in spirit. I won’t forget you.

-Love Mommy

Dear Elijah, mommy is so sorry her body failed you. I wanted you. I tried so hard to hold on to you. But my heart was starting fail, and they told me I could die in labor if I proceeded. Your big brother needed his mommy too, so I had to make the decision. I love and miss you so much. Everyday.

To our sweet baby girl that made us parents… we will love you forever, like you for always, as long as we’re living our baby you’ll be.

I love you so so much and will never stop missing you my tiny lil bean. Me and your dad love you so much, and I can’t wait until we can all be together again. I’m so sorry it had to be this way.

Dear Tyler,
Oh how I wish you were here in our arms. I miss you so very much, as do your daddy and siblings.
I keep thinking I will wake up and things will be different. You will always be in my heart 💙
We love you beyond words xx
Love Mummy, Daddy, J, M and A

To our beautiful princess, how we wish this were all a nightmare and we’d be able to hold you in our arms. You were the light at the end of the tunnel for us, during a very difficult time. Losing you is the hardest thing we’ve ever had to face, but we promise to honor your memory as a member of our family. You will always be our little girl. Our Mila, our little “Milagro”, may you rest in eternal peace until we can meet again.

Carried for a moment, but loved for a lifetime. My heart aches for your every day and I miss feeling your kicks. I hope you know how badly your Dad & I wanted you in our arms. I will love and cherish our time together for as long as I live.

I was ready to be your mother. Fly high, my little baby. I love you and I’m sorry we couldn’t meet.

Lenny, our very wanted and very loved son, we will always love you and will never forget you.

Quinn, I wanted you more than anyone or anything. Losing you has been the hardest loss of my life.

To our baby that is in heaven we think of you every second and every hour of the day. Mommy and Daddy will forever love you. I can’t wait until the day we meet again the day I get to hold you in my arms. I will forever miss you and those little kicks of yours.

We are so sorry. I love you so much. I wish it had been different.

I will see you, feel you and remember you in all the Lily flowers I encounter.
Until I see you again, my sweet girl.

Little one…
From your conception to your death, we were together. No one ever wanted anything as much as I wanted you.

I never knew I wanted you so much until I lost you. You were going to be so special to our family and so so spoiled by your grandma. I miss you every day and I have cried every day since I found out I lost you. I called you Bean and grandma called you Pumpkin. We never got to find out your gender and give you a permanent name but know this, I will never forget you baby.

Though you were only with me for a short time, I will always love you and remember you. No one knew about your existence except me and your father. We were scared but really excited when we found out about you. I am sorry that I could not be stronger for you and protect you. I will never be able to carry you in my arms and that is what hurts the most.

To my sweet boy, thank you for being strong for us for 2 hours while Dad and I gave you all the love we could in that short time and say goodbye. I miss you each day but know I’ll see you again some day.

My sweet baby girl, I prayed for you for so long and there was nothing that I wanted more than to have been able to hold you. There are no words that will fill the void in our hearts. You will always be daddy’s perfect angel and mommy’s little princess. We love and miss you so much.

We will meet you in another time, sweet Baby A and Baby B.

Joey, you are my forever sweet boy. Mom and baba love you and will meet you in heaven. Please come back to us this life, or wait for us there. We will stay together.

I’ll miss you forever “ baby Tony “ you will always be my first baby and love. Te amo para siempre. Watch over us from above. Amor eterno para siempre.

“Come with me, my love
To the sea, the sea of love
I want to tell you
How much I love you”

I see you in butterflies; I remember you when I’m by the sea; I feel you when I’m bathed in warm rays of sunshine. You will always be in our hearts.

If loving you could’ve saved you, you would have lived forever.

My sweet angel baby Skye, may you rest in paradise. You are soo loved by mommy and daddy and one day we will meet in heaven.

I will always love you

“I know how it will be when I die,
my beauty will be so extraordinary that God will worship me.
He will not worship me from a distance, for our minds will have wed,
our souls will have flowed into each other.
How to say this: My God and I
will forever cherish
Myself.” – Rabia of Basra
I will always cherish you, my darling Rosie girl.

You will always be remembered and loved.

Sorry we had to say goodbye sweet girl… we didn’t want you to suffer the way that your older brother, Mars, did. We love you.

My dear Lucas,
Even when our time together was so short, I am so grateful for it, and I cherish every memory I have of you. You will always be my son, and you will always be in my heart. Love you forever my sweetheart.

You were everything we hoped and dreamed for. I’m sorry you didn’t get the life you deserved. Our hearts are missing you every single day.

Momma and Daddy love you so very much. You’ve brought so much joy and hope to us as older parents. I hope you understand our why. And that God covers you in his Grace and our grandmas are there to reassure you of our never ending love for you. Will miss your sweet kicks and flutters and our late night chats. We love you.

I carried you for a short period of time,
I will forever carry you in my heart ♡

My little girl,
I will always remember and think about you. You’ll never be forgotten.

When I lay awake at night, I feel you close to me,
Now you’re taken from this world, I hope you can finally breathe,

Looking down on me with Golden Wings.

I wanted you more than you ever will know, so I sent love to follow wherever you go.

We love you our sweet “Bear”

Forever in my heart.

Dear Pistachio,
You brought us so much joy during the 5 months you were in our lives. We are grateful for you bringing us closer together and your gifts continue even now that you are no longer. We want you to know that you did everything right. Please forgive us. We miss getting to hold you and know you.

My baby girl was so loved and cherished.

We love you little buddy and hope you’re hanging out with Grandpa free of pain and suffering. You will always be in our hearts.

I went as far as I could with you to bring you to peace. Now sleep my beautiful baby girl, you will never be forgotten and always be loved.

Our sweet boy,
From the first moment we knew we were pregnant, our hearts were so full of joy. We couldn’t wait to be parents of three! THREE boys!
19.5 weeks later, our world came crashing down, with the horrible news of conditions you were suffering from. Momma’s heart was not prepared for any of it. I carried you for those 21 weeks, you became my best friend in there, you’d let me know things were okay with your little flutters and your strong heartbeat 🖤 I know now that you are not suffering or in pain. You are in a very special place with very special & important people to me and Daddy.
Mommy, Daddy, Braxton and Waylon love you so much, baby boy.

We love you. We are so sorry.

Dear Ruby, there is not one day where I don’t think of you. I miss you so much my baby, and I wish you could have been here with us. Thank you for bringing us so much joy, although our time together was brief. I hope that you will be happy and healthy in your next lifetime. We love you so much, our dear daughter.

Our Miracle Gone too Soon :
Yearning for a miracle
You were gift from god to us
We danced with joy at the news of it
First time saw you waving at me with your little fingers at 8 weeks
Your dad and me kept looking at you thinking how can such a tiny being steal your heart
Days passed and you started fluttering and moving around more
At 17 week we got a devastating news that was too hard to take in
My eyes were watery and mind too weak to believe what I was hearing
With a heavy heart, I went for more testing to confirm as I couldn’t just let you go
At 20 week we saw you summersaulting, waving and smiling at us, that is forever etched in our memories
Oh I wished that I could hold you in my arms
At 22 week we got the most painful news that was too hard to believe
You were gone too soon my miracle
I wasn’t ready for it and never will be
May you have an angel always by your side
You will be loved forever my little miracle
Even death can’t take that away

Loved you from the second I knew you were there, and love you still, always in my heart 💕

Until Forever 💚

Our first and forever love. Thank you for being our light. We love you so much and will carry that love for the rest of our days.

May your soul fly free, and if it is true that you could come back in another person, may you live a healthy and loving life.

Maybe we will meet in another realm some day. You were loved and we will remember you always.

19 weeks.

You were the best thing to ever happen to us. The greatest gift. We give you all of our love, always.

Miss you so much.

You are so loved. Momma wishes that she could have gotten the help she needed. You taught her so much and she’s so sorry. I love you forever, little one. Please forgive me. I hope I get to meet you one day. I love you.

If love alone could have saved you, you would have lived forever.

To my baby angel, You will live in my heart forever! I hope heaven is beautiful for you, baby! I’m sorry.

We never got to meet but I think about you every day. Your legacy is all the love I can’t spoil you with and I will put it out into the world every day. You in spirit and I in presence will leave the world better than we found it, just like you made me a better person than when you found me. I will see you again, I know it.

We will always love you with our broken hearts.

Our sweet Greer. You are so loved and were so wanted. After an IVF pregnancy, we couldn’t wait to celebrate you. Your big brother was so excited. But your tiny body was so sick. We couldn’t bring you into this world knowing the pain you would endure. We are so deep in our grief, but we did the most compassionate thing we knew to do. We will always love you our sweet girl.

Baby girl, We were so excited when we found out we were expecting you! It’s been over a year now, and not even one day goes by that I don’t think of you and wish your health would have been different. You were a very wanted little girl.

In memory of our little Franklin, our first little love who we miss so much. We will never forget you or stop loving you.

Isla, we loved you enough to let you go, but you are never far from our hearts and our minds. My heart will never stop searching for you, and my love will always find you.

To my sweet angel. I loved you from the moment I knew you were there. Mommy will always love you. You will always be the one who made me a mom. I love you to the moon and back. “Some people dream of angels, we held one in our arms.”

You gave us some much happiness and purpose in the short 16 weeks we knew you. You are so loved and missed.

My sweet boy Milo, I love you so much. Mommy and Daddy are still in so much pain but we are so grateful to take that for you. You are so loved and missed. I think about you always. You have a little sister now and she’s going to know that you’re looking out for her.

To our perfect daughter, we love you always.

My baby, my love, There isn’t a day where we don’t think about you. I am so sorry. Sorry you had to go in order to protect your identical twin sister. Thank you for being her guardian angel and protecting her. 😇 We love you more than words can express. ❤❤

I miss you every day. Even though I never got to hold you in my arms, know that you were and still are loved. We love you always and will carry you in our hearts forever.

Hi Amor,
Although we never got to meet, I’m always missing and thinking of you. I’m so sorry I couldn’t have you. Mama loves you forever, my baby.

We never imagined a future without you, but we will hold you with us forever.

Dear little one,

Mommy and daddy wanted you so bad but unfortunately, mommy’s body is not a safe home for you to grow right now. We are proud of you for hanging in there for the past 9 weeks. We will forever love you!
Until we meet again ♥️

We loved you before we could know you and we aren’t going to stop now. We miss you and think of you always.

We will always love and remember you, our sweet baby boy.

Our dearest little tomato, you are too beautiful for this world. We are lucky that you chose to stay with us for a little over 3 months, and choosing to say goodbye was the hardest decision both of us have ever made. We never wanted you to suffer, so we hope that you can forgive us, and that the heavens will be a kinder place for your soul. You taught us so much about pregnancy, about life, and about ourselves, and we thank you for these lessons. We will always love you, and you will always be our first daughter. If you happen to come back to us, we will love you ever more. But if not, please watch over us, and those that will come after you. We will hold onto the vine, don’t you worry, little tomato.

Baby bean, I wanted to meet you so badly. I had so many plans for us and our little family. We were so excited from the moment we found out we were expecting you, especially your daddy.
I never wanted you to feel pain, but a piece of me is missing now. I remember the first time I saw you, and the very last. I hope you know that I was just doing what I felt was right.
I hope you come back to us when you’re ready.
I love you forever.

My little Bea. I love you so much and wanted you more than anything. I couldn’t hold you in my arms, but will forever feel you in my soul.

Baby girl you were very much wanted, but you were too poorly for earth. We love and miss you everyday and always will.

My little bug, you are so loved. I’ll see you in the stars and feel you in the wind.

Our girl. You are always with us, in us. We love you.

Baby boy.
I miss you so much.
You taught me so much about love, life, meaning and purpose in the short 16 weeks I got to carry you.
I wonder who you could have been. My wriggly little baby boy.
But I know you would have been great. But you deserved a life without suffering.
We love you. You will forever and always be our first son.

We miss you.

You are with us, ever and always… I love you so much and I miss you every day. Though our time together was brief, I cherish it in my heart. I am kept hopeful by the thought that we will someday meet again.

So loved but never forgotten.

My Dearest Pink Rose,
I miss you so much. You were within my womb for 5 months and there is now a feeling of emptiness in my body and my heart.
I’m so sorry you did not get to see this world. We want you to know that we made this decision so you wouldn’t have to live a life of suffering. We love you so much, we want you to be happy as you are. Please know this always. Mummy and Daddy will always love you, and you will always be our little girl. We think of you all the time and we know you’re living now as an angel, making others happy around you. Take care, little one. You are forever in our hearts. We love you eternally.

It’s been a long time but I still think of you all the time.

Our Amazing Son Pax ,
We expected a baby ,
but we got a angel instead.

We love you son with all our hearts. Your daddy and I would have done anything to take your pain away – that’s why we live on earth with it now everyday.

Shine bright my star 🌟

You will forever be our baby girl and you will forever be remembered. Your Appa, your big sister and I will always love and remember you.

To my dear, precious, beautiful daughter – I love you so so so much. I miss you so much. I wish you were healthy and I could still be pregnant with you today and looking forward to raising you.
My little one – you have made such a huge impact on my heart and on my soul. You have forever changed me for the better. I am so glad for the gift of having known you. I will always fondly remember feeling your adorable little kicks inside me, how they helped me get through bad days at work. I will always remember how much love I felt for you when I saw and held you after giving birth to you.
I want you to know that you are always on my mind and in my heart, and that I long to honor you in whatever I do in my life.

We named you Asher because it means fortunate, blessed, happy one and from how wiggly you were and your ultrasound smiles, it was truly fitting. We are so grateful for the time we got to spend with you feeling your kicks and wiggles, sharing banana pancakes, dance parties, taking you to meet your Grandpa in Anza, Daddy’s first sip of alcohol with his son and singing to you in my Mornings with Ash. You brought us so much happiness and love. We only wish we could have had longer, could have held you in our arms. Losing you has left a hole in our hearts that will never go away, but they are more full than ever before. Though we had to let you go, we find joy and peace in knowing you will never suffer and will always be our happy one. We miss you so much.

“No there’s nothing that I wouldn’t do, to make you feel my love.”

Always know this, our sweet baby boy, you are so wanted and loved. We will carry you in our hearts forever.

To the baby who surprised us and opened our hearts. You are loved and missed.

Riley, I love and miss you so much. I am so sorry we had to say goodbye so soon. I can’t wait until I can join you and hold you in my arms.

You were wanted by me
Even if it was not planned
I will always miss you
I will always regret that I wasn’t able to have you
I will always wonder who you could have been

Your big brother and your parents miss you tremendously. Thank you for coming into our lives. You came back to us briefly a few months later, but couldn’t stay. It was the saddest day of our lives. I wish I could have seen your face. The love will forever remain. I keep your last ultrasound picture in a special place along with the canvas drawing I made of you. We love you, Little Chief!!
-Mommy

Our sweet Peter. We are so thankful for the six months we got to be your parents. We are blessed to have had you at all. We love you to the moon and back and back again. We always have and always will. We already miss you more than words can ever convey. You changed our lives forever and brought us so much joy. You are so loved. You are perfectly imperfectly made. And you’ll forever be our boy.

We lost you one year ago today. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you. You’re our little angel in heaven. I know you’re watching over your little family. We love and miss you so much.

“Now it’s time to say good night
Good night sleep tight
Now the sun turns out his light
Good night sleep tight
Dream sweet dreams for me
Dream sweet dreams for you.
Close your eyes and I’ll close mine
Good night sleep tight
Now the moon begins to shine
Good night sleep tight
Dream sweet dreams for me
Dream sweet dreams for you.
Close your eyes and I’ll close mine
Good night sleep tight
Now the sun turns out his light
Good night sleep tight
Dream sweet dreams for me
Dream sweet dreams for you.
Good night good night everybody
Everybody everywhere
Good night.”

My sweet baby boy. Thank you for choosing me as your mommy. I never deserved this honor. You were made with pure love. You were always wanted. My intentions were to protect you the best way I knew how.
I will hold you someday somewhere over the rainbow.

Forever Loved.

You will forever be on our every heartbeat and you’ve left a void no one can fill. Come to make us whole again.

Ruby Grace – our perfect little angel.
May the winds of heaven blow softly and whisper in your ear
how much we love and miss you, and wish that you were here ♥️

We can’t wait to see you and hold you in our arms again one day little one.

I have never wanted anything more than I wanted you, please know that. You are woven into my heart forever. I love you and miss you. I know that our souls will be together again, my sweet angel.

My little dream. I miss you everyday. Tomorrow could have been your birthday. I love you so much. I hope Samson has you with him. I love you.

Our sweet baby boy, Christopher Michael, you will forever be remembered and loved. We will forever cherish the moments we were given to spend with you and you will always be in our hearts. We love you to the moon & back!

To my beautiful baby boy,
From the minute I saw that second pink line you were my everything. Your dad and I love you very much, we are so sorry that this happened to you. I am happy I am able to take your pain, I just miss you so much. I hope you are resting easy.
Thank you for everything you have taught me, you will forever be my little man watching over me and my family. I can’t wait to meet again one day. I will forever hold you within my heart.

I love you Hank.

I have loved you and will always do.
My heart was broken when I had to decide that you were too beautiful to be on this earth. Your dad and I have always wanted and dreamt of you. We will never forget you, my baby Angel. You will always have that very special place in Mama’s heart.

Lainey Christine

I’ll love you forever. I’ll like you for always. As long as I’m living. My angel baby you’ll be.
Mommy & Daddy will miss you very much and will love you forever.

I carry you with me everywhere I go, in everything that I do. I didn’t get to meet you but I know what you made me. Thank you for coming. My heart is bigger because of you. xxx

I will hold you in my heart until I can hold you in heaven.

We love you forever, will miss you for always, as long as we’re living, our baby you’ll be.

My beautiful baby,
I love you and miss you so much. I can´t wait to hold you in heaven and stay with you forever. You will always be in my heart and in my thoughts and the only thing that keeps me going is to know that you will never suffer and you are an angel enjoying the presence of God. I love and miss you so much my baby.

To our little one, we will love you always. We chose to take on your pain ourselves and will always be grateful you came into our lives, changing us for the better despite your short life. We hope you are holding Olivia close.

You will never know the love we have for you. You are dearly missed and forever in my heart.

I love you and miss you so much!
I just hope you could enjoy the time we spend together. That you could feel that we traveled the world, saw and heard amazing things (the biggest waterfall in Europe!), the foods your father made for us…. we had so much fun and I hope you felt it. I am so sorry that your condition wouldn’t have allowed you to enjoy the world as you deserved. And I am sorry we found that out so late.
I will never forget you. You’ll always be my girl.
Love you and wish you are in a better and kinder place. You are so loved.

Are there rocking chairs in Heaven
where little babies go?
Do the angels hold you closely
and rock you to and fro?

Do they talk silly baby talk
to get a smile or two,
and sing the sleepy lullabies
I used to sing to you?

My heart is aching for you,
my angel child so dear.
You brought such joy into my life
the short time you were here.

I know you’re in a happy place
and in God’s loving care.
I dream each night I’m rocking you
in Heaven’s rocking chair

—Poem by Ron Tranmer

You were the baby we never knew we could have. What I would give to hold you in my arms.

Bridger James:
I could not stop smiling the day I found out I was pregnant with you. I love you so much and so looked forward to raising you and spending the rest of my life as your mom. I am so so sorry I did not get the chance to meet you outside of my belly. Ali, your dad and I wanted so badly to shower you with love and hugs and kisses. I’m so sad your body and chromosomes let you down and I hope we have not let you down with our “choice” to end your suffering. We never had the choice of a healthy life for you son—and it’s the saddest feeling I’ve ever experienced. I miss carrying you in my belly and hope you felt the love that is very alive for you. I am thankful for our short time together and know you will stay with me for the rest of your life.

The unimaginable happened.
Fly high baby boy. You no longer suffer. Mommy, daddy, and your brother will forever love and miss you.
See you in heaven.

I hope you’re dancing with the angels baby girl..

Zander we love and miss you dearly. Your always in our hearts, my sweet boy. I can’t wait to hold you in my arms one day. We are sorry and love you.

Know you were always loved, now more than ever. Not a day goes by where you are not thought of. You are always on our minds and forever in our hearts.

You were everything I wanted and more; a baby conceived out of pure love and happiness. I am truly sorry for making the decision to send you to a better place. I didn’t want you to live a life of pain and suffering. It was the most difficult decision I have ever made in my life. I thought long and hard about it. I prayed. I had close family and friends pray for us, and yet every bone in my body led me to decide that you were better off in heaven with your grandma and uncle. I wanted nothing more than to have you, my precious baby boy, to have you grow up strong and healthy and in my arms. I will meet you once again my baby, Alejandro Ruben, until then please watch over me. I love you with all my heart and soul. 💙💙💙

My sweet Jack,
We are very sorry to have said bye to you so soon. We miss you so much, and we think about you every single day.
Mommy is so sorry and will forever carry you in her heart.
Until we finally meet again,
Mommy, daddy, Seby, Mimi and Benji
We love you very much

My baby boy, I grieve for you every day. You were our last baby, the finale to our family and were so wanted and needed. Our hearts will forever miss you and I’m so sorry for deciding your fate. It was heart-crushing but we didn’t want you to suffer. Just please remember us in heaven and we will see you when we get there. I love you and you will forever be a part of me. You looked so perfect and beautiful and I’m glad I got to hold you.

Dear Avery,

You were our first embryo from IVF and waited patiently for two years to make your journey. We were so happy to see your beautiful face and watch you grow.
We are devastated to have lost you, our only little girl, and I know I spoke to you every day and you know that we love you more than anything. I told you to wait for us on the white sand beach with the turquoise lagoon; we will meet someday.
We will miss you forever and ever… I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart).

My sweet little angel Sophia, I loved you since the moment I found out I had you in me, and I will forever remember you and keep you in my heart your part of me. You’re the daughter that I always wanted, I love you with all my heart.

We love you with all our heart. We miss you and we never even met you. I will forever carry you in my heart. You’re in God’s arms now. Rest In Peace my little angel. Until we meet you again.

While we never got to meet. We dreamed of you and loved you so much it hurt, it still hurts. We give to you the greatest gift any parent ever can; a life free of any suffering or pain. We take on this grief and sorrow to let you be forever at peace. May God hold you in his arms until the day comes when we can.

I love you and miss you more than words can ever express. I know how hard you fought and how much you wanted to be here. You will always be wanted and loved, my beloved little fighter. Rest in peace, we will be reunited in heaven one day.

In memory of Lucas, born sleeping as an angel on 30.6.20.

I only need a minute Lord,I know he’s safe with you

There is something real important I didn’t get the chance to do

If you could please give Lucas a dummy and sing him a lullaby or two

And let him know his granddaddy and auntie Jenae and uncle Clancy love and miss him too.

Loved and missed deeply by your nannaleen…xx

Our precious boys Jack and Thomas. Our beautiful angels. Forever in our hearts and lives. We love you 💙💙

I love you. You were wanted. I am so so sorry that I will never be able to hug you, kiss you or comfort you. I am so sorry. You will always be in my heart. I wish I could give you the life you deserved. You will always be my baby, my last child – the best baby sister to your sister and brother. I will hold you in my dreams and inshallah we can will meet again in the afterlife. Until then, know that your Mama will always loves you and never forget you.

We are sorry we could not bring you into the world. You will be forever remembered and loved.

My little boy, our first cub. How happy we are that you are our son. So many lessons you taught, and gifts you gave. You showed us how to give and always be brave. We never held you in our arms, instead we use our hearts. There your soul shall always stay, and we will never part. Though your body did not stay, your light still shines on. Bear king forever bright, vibrant, and strong.

We love you Bjorn, and give you this gift of peace, a life free of suffering, and a eternal life of love.

In our hearts forever

Dani’n dy garu di. Xx

My precious little star,

Forever and a day I will wonder where you are.

You, my darling, were loved from the start, and I promise it won’t be long that we have to be apart.

My heart is so broken to think I had to leave you, but seeing you one day will get me through.

I miss you every single day, and every single night I wish I didn’t let you go away.

I love you my darling for now and forever.

Our first baby, we wanted you so badly. I’m sorry you were sick and couldn’t stay… I miss feeling you kick inside my belly. We love you, little boy, and we will never forget you.

To our beautiful firstborn,

Your Daddy and I love you so much. You were wanted by so many. I miss carrying you in my tummy and feeling your little kicks. We know that you are at peace now, and you will always be remembered and loved.

You will be forever remembered and loved.

We love you and cannot wait to see you!

You were so wanted from day one no matter how small you were. I think about you constantly and miss carrying you. I would have given anything to see your sweet beautiful face. You will be loved by your mommy every day.

Lena,
You are our light that will never go dark. Our firstborn who opened our eyes and our hearts to so much love. We will never forget what you have taught us and strive to be better because of you. We love you so much!

Our sweet angel, I will always love you. While we couldn’t meet on earth I take comfort in our reunion in Heaven. I will pray for you always! I love you my beautiful baby.

You were there. I heard your heart beat. I saw you move. You were so tiny, yet my body still changed so much for you. I am so thankful for the 14 weeks that we had together. I will never forget you.

To our sweet little one, our first baby. We tried for nine months before getting pregnant. You were carried for 32 weeks—nearly the entire pregnancy. It was a no-choice choice. We take comfort in knowing you are no longer suffering. We would have done anything to save you.

You were wanted by so many. A perfect addition to a perfect marriage. Every new doctor was a chance to get new information, new hope. But it came to this. You will never ever be forgotten, you are always loved.

I held you 5 months as close as I could
We knew bringing you here
Was only doing us good.
Up with mother Mary you shall stay
I hope to see you reach for me one day.
I hope to see the hair I dreamed of
So blonde and straight and bright
Like the laugh I heard in all my dreams
With your brother and sister by your side
They will see your face one day too
For now I’ll teach them to look to heaven to see you.
I close my eyes and see you in my heart
It is where you came from your very start.
I love you Astrid
It will only grow each day
grow in my heart until it’s so big
It carries me away.

This only expresses words that cant touch how much I miss you. Thats a scorching agony of eternal death where I last felt you.

We held you tight for as long as we could until it was time to say goodbye. You left a huge mark on mommy and daddy’s hearts and we will always think of you. We did this to keep you from suffering and I know you would understand. We love you, sweet beautiful baby girl.

You never got bigger than a blueberry, but you were precious to me. I am sorry I could not bring you into the world, and if there is any justice in the world, we will meet in heaven.

I asked you, begged you, to hold on during the first surgery and you did, miraculously. You were strong and brave. But it was my body that failed *you.* I needed a second surgery and I couldn’t take you with me. I couldn’t take you with me. And it destroyed me. So I asked one more thing of you, for you to come back to me when this is all done. Please, please come back to me. You were so wanted. You were so loved.

Charlie means free man

Time was not on our side
The Lord has a plan but it’s just so hard to understand
You must know you are loved
I won’t hold you back
Little hug, medium hug, big hug
You were so wanted little one
We are so sorry

My sweet boy Seven had been about two years in the making. After multiple failed IUI cycles, I underwent IVF. I conceived on the first try. I remember my doctor telling me he chose this 12 cell embryo because it was “more advanced” than the others. I was over the moon when the clinic called to tell me it had worked. I was instantly in love. At 11 weeks, I did the cfDNA, thinking I would just have extra peace of mind. I was positive for T18 and confirmed about a month later by amniocentesis. That month wait between the cfDNA and amniocentesis was difficult but lovely. I chose to lean into enjoying our time together. I sang you songs and talked to you daily. I also promised you I wouldn’t let you suffer if I could help it. So on 2/21/20, I parted ways with you physically. You made me a Mother and I am forever grateful.
Seven, you’ll always be on my mind and in my heart.

I’m sorry that we never got to meet you and for any pain the you suffered. I hope you are pain free and at peace now and I know your big sister will look after you until we all meet again. Your big brother keeps asking where you have gone and we speak about you ever day. You’re constantly in my thoughts and my heart. We will always love you. xx

Baby, I’m so sorry. I wanted nothing more than to be your mama. To hold you in my arms, to nurse you, to love you, to watch you grow. You may have never taken a breath in this world but you mattered. You left your mark. You have forced us to recognize our strength and love for one another.

I wish I could have one day with you to tell you that you will be loved endlessly.

We will miss you forever. We love you my dear boy.

Go fly my dear daughter. We will meet again in this life or in the afterlife. I will always love you.

Baby Eowyn,
We love you so much. We will miss you forever. We wanted so badly to keep you with us, but we couldn’t stand to watch you suffer before you passed away. Thank you so much for being part of our family, if only for a short time. May you be at peace and free from pain and I hope we meet again.

Love you baby, always thinking of you.

You’re always in our hearts.

Our sweet Kamilah, we thank God for the wonderful 16 weeks together. I’m so sorry we couldn’t save you from that terrible diagnosis. Please know we choosed what’s best for you. May you rest in peace in God’s arms. “I loved you since forever, and for ever is how long you’ll be loved by me”

Our baby was very much wanted. The whole family was excited, including my living daughter and my fiance. We never could have seen what was coming. I will remember that day for the rest of my life. We will always love our angel baby, and I hope to see them soon one day. I know they’ll be watching over us forever.

You were much wanted and tenderly loved. We are heartbroken and miss you every day.

You were so wanted and hoped for. We tried for months to get pregnant. We were devastated when we heard the news. We did what we thought was best. We never wanted you to suffer. We love you so much and you’ll always be our first baby girl.

You are forever so loved and so wanted.

Natalia, you will always be my 1st baby girl. You bought us so much joy for the little time you were with us! Please forgive us, we did the best thing for you. We love you with all our hearts! Our hearts ache for you. I love you, my beautiful girl. Visit me in my dreams!

I’ll see you when I fall asleep my beautiful angel. I’m so so sorry I had to make this decision, I love you more than anything! My baby forever💜

To my sweet little Gracie, my first child.
How much weight I have carried knowing that I could not give you the life you deserved.
You are in heaven now and I have lived in then knowing that one day, you will finally be placed – happy and smiling – into my arms at last.

Love of my life,
I am so sorry we didn’t have the strength to bring you into this world. We were scared, lonely, and alone. I hope someday we’ll meet you in the afterlife. I will always love you.

A piece of my heart is in Heaven, can’t wait to meet you some day! Love you always!

The first time I felt him kick, I thought it was going to be a fairytale ending and now to not feel him or see him, it’s my worst nightmare come true. I have nothing else to say because honestly it hurts the bottom of my heart to even text or talk about.

Your daddy and I love you so much, baby boy. I never ever wanted to say goodbye. Every time I see a red fox, I think of you. We had so many hopes and dreams for you and we were so excited. We hated to say goodbye to you, especially the way we had to. I wish I could turn back time and heal you. You will always be my little fox and I will think of you every day for the rest of my life. Your little feet truly left imprints on my heart <3 Help to comfort Mommy in this time and show me and your daddy you are with us when we need you the most, my beautiful boy. We will see you one day and I will never let you go again.

My Dear Baby Boy,
We loved you from day one. Papa felt complete, your big brother was dreaming about holding your hand, hearing your voice and watching you laugh with all the silly things he will do for you. I dreamt of you and saw your pretty face, and in that dream I held your hand and felt my heart be filled with love. We will hold you in our hearts forever and I will never be the same without you.

My angel, mommy wanted so badly to save you. But, I couldn’t. No matter how hard I cried, kicked, screamed. There was nothing I could do to keep you here with me. I felt helpless. Alone. Mommy didn’t want you to suffer. Mommy wanted you to be free. Where you are safe. And even though I couldn’t keep you safe in my arms, I know the Lord is holding you for me. I will never forget you, my baby boy. No matter what, I will always have a son.

I love you forever, sweet Theo. We will meet again some day ❤️

I wanted you my darling and I am sorry my body failed you
I had to make an impossible choice to try to not just survive, but to really live, for the little ones already in my arms.
But that doesn’t mean I won’t always, always carry you in my heart
I’m so sorry
Your mama, always xxx

My darling boy, may your soul soar. I love you to the stars and back xxxx

I always have and always will love you. I look forward to meeting you one day, my beautiful baby.

You are so unbelievably loved, baby girl. Please know how wanted you are. We chose a peaceful sleep for you and I will struggle every day with that. But you will never struggle. And that’s what truly matters. Can’t wait to hold you again, my beautiful girl. My Maya ❤️

We never got to hold you in our arms but I hold you in my heart sweet little girl. Know you were wanted and loved beyond this world and will forever be our angel baby.

He doesn’t know a soul
There’s nowhere that he’s really been
But he won’t travel long alone
No, not in Fiddler’s Green
Balloons all filled with rain
As children’s eyes turn sleepy-mean
And Falstaff sings a sorrowful refrain
For a boy in Fiddler’s Green

You came into this world silent but you dance loudly on our hearts.

Your tiny footprints, so little and so small. Your tiny footprints never touched the ground at all. I’ll miss you pretty girl.💗

My darling firstborn daughter,
I will love you and miss you every day until we meet again.
Love always and forever

Dear Owen,

Please know that we made this decision to spare you from a lifetime of pain and difficulty. We will love you and hold space for you in our hearts forever. Rest easy, sweet angel.

I never expected this to happen, my love. I have been trying to be strong for your sisters and father. I still feel like everything we went through was just a bad dream. It is unreal how the pain of losing you still brings me to my knees. I force myself to think of the good memories of our time together. How much love Bryan and I felt towards you. How your big sisters glowed when you kicked them in my belly. How you would dance around when your dad would play drums and when I would sing. I miss you so much Laurel… I think the hardest part of all of this is knowing that I had to choose this. To make such a hard decision honestly turned my life upside down. I hope you know that I did this all out of love. I hope we will meet again someday and I truly hope you feel how much I love and miss you, my sweet little baby. You have taught me so much and have shown me how strong I am. We all send our love. Please watch over your sisters and know we cherish you, Laurel Calliope! You are my muse… my little bluebird… my sweet angel baby…💗

Wanted even still. Loved always.

Please know we did what we thought was the best option for you. I’m so sorry that things ended up this way. I’m happy I was able to kiss your little head twice. I love you.

My baby boy, you are loved and missed more than words can say.

Evie,

We gave you your name because we loved looking up at the stars in the evening. We only had 6 weeks together but they were the most amazing 6 weeks! We love you so much! We didn’t get to meet you in person but you stole our hearts! I’m sorry that Mommy wasn’t able to carry you to term. But just know that I love you with everything I have in me! Please watch over us! We love you Evie Snow!

(When pregnant I felt like the baby was a girl. Felt like when I was pregnant with my older daughters.)

We never found out your gender and lost you before we could pick a name. You were our little avocado. You will forever be known as, Avo Spencer, our little avocado baby.

The first time we saw you move we lost you only moments later. We were heartbroken by your diagnosis and made the decision to let you go now so you and your mom could both stop suffering. We love you always and forever. You will forever be apart of us. Our lives are eternally changed. We made you a special avocado urn and will celebrate special moments with you always. May your soul be able to move on and be at peace.

The two hours we were able to hold you are the most wonderful moments of our lives. We will keep striving, keep running toward the goal where we are reunited with you again. You are our light and hope, a miracle no one else can’t understand. A part of our hearts forever, woven deep into our being.

After 23 years, still loving and missing you, my lovely daughter.

To our beautiful angel, you were too precious for this life. Fly high, gorgeous boy & we will meet again someday. We love you to the moon and back and you will be forever in our hearts.

My little boy, lights will guide you home. I love you my little butterfly. I see you daily. You make me so proud strong, boy. Please enjoy heaven; you were too beautiful for earth, baby boy. Always in our hearts. Love you, Mom & Dad

My sweet little bun, you have been everything that I had ever wanted. Having to let you go was the best, but hardest decision I had to ever make and I wish it was a decision that I never had to make. I could never bring myself to make you live such an unfair life and everyday is a reminder of what could have been and it hurts so much , but I will forever love and cherish you.

Heartbreak
Once upon a time I thought I knew pain
But it turns out I didnt know what pain could be
I feel lost running in the rain
My heart tore out shredded to bits how could this happen to me
I thought that my little family would be complete
Apparently that’s not what god had planned for me
Losing not one but two little mini me’s
How am i suppossed to believe
That this is what god had planned for me
To rip out my heart and tear it to bits
I can’t believe that this is it
My heart aches so very much
That my babies i’ll never even get to touch
My soul will take a long time to recover from this
Just know my sweet loves that forever you will be missed
I don’t think i could go through this again
To go from one to two to none
My heart aches because this cannot be undone

Sweet daughter,
There is not a day that goes by that I don’t talk to you or pray to you. You are not physically with us but my love for you is the same as if you were. Our whole family loves and misses you and you are always my third child.

You were loved and will be forever.

My heart breaks still for this loss, for you and all I want to know about you, and the love I have to give you. I felt you like the chickadees that visited me in late summer, so sweet and only staying for too short a time. I loved you then and I love you now… I will love you forever.

My dear son,
We love you more than we can say. You are the most precious and beautiful boy we could have asked for. We believe that even though you are not with us physically anymore, you’re still with us spiritually. We will keep you in our heart forever!
Love

I love you so much. You will always be a part of me and I will carry you in my heart. I wish I could have known you. I know you are at peace.

I am sorry you couldn’t be in my arms, Bean. Right now I wish I could be with you. I hope you forgive me and don’t hate me. I love you.

Sweet baby girl, you are so loved. I’ll think of you every day.

“I’ll love you forever,
I’ll like you for always,
as long as I’m living
my baby you’ll be.”
—Robert Munsch

Mummy and Daddy love you so much. You are the most beautiful sight we ever saw, the most precious soul we ever touched. Know that we never chose to lose you, we just didn’t want you to suffer—we wanted to take that on for you. I will miss you and think about you every day. You are perfect and you are imprinted in our hearts forever. Love you, baby.

My beautiful babies
I will never know you now
It really wasn’t meant to be
It’s too unfair, somehow.

Touched with grand love
Although for a small time
That feeling stays forever
And forever you are mine.

But hiding the grief
And fighting back the tears
Will be part of me now
For the rest of my years

A curse of disbelief
For you two mean so much,
My 2 beautiful babies
Our love is always in touch.

I am blinded by tears
And I have a gaping space
My two precious twins.
I will never replace.

But forever you both are
And forever you will be
Part of my family
And the void that is in me.

You are what completes me and
The void that fills me

There are no words to express how much we love you. There would never be enough time to be together. But we had to let you go so soon. It broke our hearts and also showed us that in the dark moments of deep sorrow, the light of compassion and ultimate love shines far brighter than ever 💖
We miss you every single moment of our lives, our beloved son Robert.

My little Lily, my Angel. I feel blessed to have carried you for 12 weeks. Every day I think of you and wish you were here with us, but I know you’re watching over us from Heaven. Mommy, Daddy, and everyone love you so much. I will hold you in my heart until I can hold you in Heaven.
❤ I’ll Love You Forever, I’ll Like You For Always, As Long As I’m Living My Baby You’ll Be ❤

“We had to think about a baby who was not going to live very long, and the longer he lived the more pain he would be in.”

We love you.
My sweet Nolan Michael. 💙💔
R.I.P 5-26-17 11:43 a.m.
#EWP

Our sweet baby George. The thought of having you scared me when I first found out I was pregnant with you. When we knew we were losing you, we were devastated. You are my firstborn and so incredibly loved. You made me a mother and taught me that I could love a baby. You brought me and your father closer than anything could have. Because of you, we are stronger. You are always in my thoughts and will never be forgotten. I look forward to the day I can see you again. We love you.

Little Snowdrop.
(Author unknown)

The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn’t bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.

But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.

The little one we longed for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.

And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
For every beating of our hearts
Says that we love you.

I miss you every day
We loved you more than words can say & wanted you more than anything

My dear sweet baby…We love you more than words can say and will spend the rest of our lives missing you. We pray we have given you a better alternative and look forward to reuniting with you when the time comes. Just know you were always wanted and will always be loved & remembered.

Sweet Isabella,
Mommy, Daddy and your big brother Michael will always love you and never forget you. Fly high sweet girl.
Until we meet again. We love you so much.❤️

We love you to the moon and back little guy. I think of you every day and know you are in heaven playing with the angels.

Love you forever little one xx

Not a single day goes by where you are not missed. You will always be dearly loved and remembered until we are together again.

Always loved. Always wanted.

My sweet angel baby
I was blessed to carry you for 14 weeks. Losing you was the hardest thing your Baba and I have ever been through. We never had the privilege to hold you in our arms but we will hold you in our hearts forever.

My dear son
We will miss you and think of you always until we meet in heaven one day…
RIP angel baby

We love you ❤️

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
Do you Know How Loved You Are
The day we lost you, Lucas, our hearts broke into a million pieces. They will never be full again as there is an empty space where you should be xxx
Love you, my little boy, always …. I’m sorry xx

Sweetheart, we love you so much. I hope you can somehow understand and forgive us. We chose peace for you and miss you every day. I know you’re watching over us now. You will always have a piece of our hearts and I wish so much that I could have given you mine.

Our Precious Baby Girl, Blake.
We think of you daily. You are always in our hearts.

My sweet angel boy
I was so lucky to carry you for 24 weeks
I never had the privilege to hold you in my arms but I will hold you in my ❤️ Forever baby boy
I miss you and think of you every single day my love until we meet again

RIP angel baby

Momma

You were loved before I knew you were a boy, you were still loved during the heartache of letting you go, and you are still loved in heaven. There’s a hole in my soul, a person missing from my world, you are always thought about, and I wish things would have been different. I’m forever missing my baby boy.

Our beautiful baby, always in our hearts.

Dear baby boy,

We think of you every day. You are a part of this family always, and we miss you. Losing you was the hardest thing your dad and I have ever been through, and we will always treasure the magical weeks you were with us.

Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting.

Our little brave bear, loved every day from the moment we knew you were there until the days we close our eyes to meet you once again,

We miss you so much, sweet Matteo. We wish so badly we could’ve held you in our arms and watched you grow up. Mommy is so grateful for the 13 weeks and 1 day you spent in her belly. We think of you every single day. We love you more than any word or words can convey.

Sending my love every day. But thank you my baby for sending me strength in your baby brother Jacob. One day in the future we will meet again. Until then I hope you’re happy. Love and miss you

Noah,
Your father and I will be forever grateful for every single second you were with us. I promise we will never stop honoring you or loving you. No matter what, you will always be our firstborn son and I will spend the rest of my life honoring your life with love. Thank you for choosing us to be your parents. I miss you. I love you with every single piece of my heart and soul and nothing will ever change that. I love you, Noah. I can’t wait to see and hold you again someday.

You are loved. You are missed. You are with me still. I carried you every second of your life, and my heart will hold you every second of mine.

A missing son
A missing brother
An empty space in my heart that can never be filled
As long as I’m living
My baby you will be

Andrew was the boy that was supposed to be here with his 3 sisters. He was and still is very much wanted. There is a very special place in my heart for him. I thank Andrew for letting me be his mom for a short while and for the little moments we spent together. I hope to see him again one day.

Our forever Prince, safe in the arms of Granddad. We love you forever.

You are so precious to me, sweet as can be, baby of mine. I love you to the moon and back!

“Unable to perceive the shape of You, I find You all around me. Your presence fills my eyes with Your love, It humbles my heart, For You are everywhere…”

My dear sweet boy, how I miss you. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of your sweet face. I see you in your siblings! I hope where ever your precious spirit is that we will meet again one day. I love you to the moon and back.

My sweet boy,
I loved you since I knew you were there and I will love you every day of my life.

Our darling baby girl, how I wish I were holding you instead of typing this. So many moments I’ve dreamt of having with you were taken from us, but the 13 weeks my womb housed you were the sweetest gift. I still see you everywhere I go. We love you, Sweet Pea.

I carry your heart, I am never without it.

A life so short but so impactful. You will be missed and loved always!

Carried for 24w, loved forever. Miss you my baby boy xxx

Loved beyond words, missed beyond measure x

I never would have believed how much I could love someone I never met.
In loving you and losing you and loving you still, in watching that love unfurl and spread through my being like frost on a windowpane, I have learned what unconditional love means and what it sometimes requires of us.
It’s a beautiful gift. It has remade me utterly.
I’d still give it back if I could have you, alive and healthy, instead.

While we never held you in our arms, you left a great impression on our lives. You taught us to treasure every moment as a family, you taught us that it is okay to cry in front of our living son and discuss difficult emotions with him, you taught us to lean on family and friends and ask for help when we need it, you taught us the importance of empathy and listening to other people’s experiences, and you taught us to advocate for what is important to us and to advocate for others who may not be ready or able to do so themselves. You changed our lives and you are forever in our hearts.

How very quietly you tiptoed into our world, silently, only a moment you stayed. But what an imprint your footprints have left upon our hearts. ~ Dorothy Ferguson

I know someday you’ll have a beautiful life
I know you’ll be a star
In somebody else’s sky
But why
Why
Why can’t it be
Why can’t it be mine?

~Gossard/Vedder