I’ll never forget the emptiness I felt afterward. You’re meant to come away with a little baby after giving birth, not be sent home from the hospital with a broken heart. By Emma My husband and I spent five years trying to have a baby. In the midst of transitioning to a new fertility doctor, a miracle had happened. I was pregnant! We were both overjoyed and our hearts were full. The first trimester brought constant nausea, some dizziness, and a miscarriage scare. When we reached the second trimester we sighed with relief. We scheduled a photo shoot to share our exciting news and started […]
Editor’s note: By special request of the author, this story is published exactly as it was submitted to us. We were crushed, devastated, horrified. The rug had been swept out from under us. In a matter of a few days, we had gone from excited to meet our little boy to hearing we may never meet him and on top of that, we had to make that impossible decision. By Jeannine April 29, 2021 was the worst day of my life. That previous Monday night, we had definitively felt our baby boy moving for the first time. My husband and I sat for several minutes, […]
The doctor came in with a very sympathetic demeanor and started saying words like cystic hygroma and hydrops and fatal and miscarry and chromosomal issues. We completely lost it. “What do you mean?” I wanted to scream. I just saw a normal happy little moving baby on that screen a few minutes ago. By Jaclyn When our daughter was just 6 months old, we found out we were pregnant again. I’m not going to lie, I was horrified. I was still breastfeeding, trying to juggle being a new mom, working full time, and adjusting to marriage as a parent. Although I reminded myself daily how […]
We had to make a choice between rock and hard place, shitty or shittier. The least shitty option for us was to terminate the pregnancy. By Jane After several miscarriages, two living children, then more miscarriages, my husband put his foot down and said, “No more.” We couldn’t keep going on like that. I reluctantly agreed. Once that decision was made, I made peace with having our little family despite always wanting four children. In Jan 2018, I had a funny feeling I was pregnant despite not missing a pill. I couldn’t shake the feeling so stopped drinking alcohol and waited until I could take […]
I just wasn’t expecting this. I hadn’t had time to do any research. I couldn’t think of any questions even though my mind was racing and my hands were shaking. By Stefanie A difficult beginning I’m 39 and had three previous miscarriages (no living children). I had my first miscarriage at 36, then two more miscarriages back-to-back to start off the absolute worst year of my life—2020. Based on all of this, a recent blood clot I had, and some test results, I was put on daily injected blood thinners for my fourth pregnancy starting at five weeks. After I passed the seven-week mark in […]
Typically, a nuchal translucency is performed between 11 and 13 weeks. Mine was late, at 13.5 weeks. The fact that the doctor wasn’t seeing what he should be seeing at this late stage alarmed me. By Morgan At my first ultrasound, I asked the technician, “Is there a heartbeat?” I breathed a big sigh of relief when she said yes. We had learned from the NIPT that we were expecting a little girl, and we had already come up with a name that we both thought might be a good fit. I almost canceled my nuchal translucency test My husband and I were working full-time from […]
There’s just this. Just a space where she should be. That sounds sad and sometimes, like today and on Mother’s Day, it is sad.
It was our choice. To us, it was the only choice. By Erin It has been almost two weeks since we had to end our sweet baby’s life. I hate saying it like that, but to me, that’s what we did. Even though it was the right choice. It was our choice. To us, it was the only choice. I’m 32, my spouse is 30. When we found out we were pregnant in September of 2019 we felt scared, excited, and nervous. But we never thought anything could go wrong and soon we were just overjoyed and elated. Telling our family and friends We told our […]
Though the act of scheduling the termination—and the thought of actually showing up voluntarily to have it done—felt impossible to me, I didn’t ever really doubt our decision. I knew what we had to do, even though the thought of doing of it broke me in a way I didn’t think I could feel broken. By Roseanne It was a Tuesday, my day off, and naptime when the phone call came. I was reading one last book to our daughter, cuddled up under a blanket in our bed. I didn’t recognize the number, but it was local, and I knew that maybe it was […]
It never crossed my mind as a possibility that my wife and I were not going to have this baby. We did everything right. We downloaded the apps, watched the foods we ate, had regular doctor visits, exercised regularly (but not too much), did all of the genetic screenings, even refrained from letting the news spread until we crossed the first-trimester milestone where miscarriage rates are higher.